haven't you ever felt so broken you just wanted to disappear?
or so lonely you wanna throw the towel in?
could happiness become extinct , or just die out?
you know what's weird? when i was really happy, like genuinely happy, i wanted to die because i figured what are the chances i'll die happy yanno.
i looked coldly into the eyes of friend/co-worker and told her happiness is a lie. and the sad part was i believed it, for at least that second. i have, through the workings of life decided that's the lie. i think i wanted to believe it because that would have meant i'm not a total failure - yet. it could have meant i might keep things lax for a while, and stopped feeling that pressure - which has for better or worse, become my motivation. so now that i've regained my stance on happiness what am i to do?
keep looking for it.
happiness is a 9 letter word. and it's the truth.
yes I have been there...I know all about that. Read some of my earlier posts. Maybe we have more in common than you think. Do you believe in destiny?
ReplyDeleteoh boy that's a heavy question. let me put it this way, i can believe that meeting someone is destined or doing a certain thing, but not like we have one destiny, open and shut case. cause that would be Wack, with a capital w.
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