Thursday, February 24, 2011

The Next Big Thing


you didn't even wanna come home with me that night, i swallowed my pride and almost begged you. the lack of life in my eyes caught your attention and you came. on the ride home you rested you head and i was happy to have my lap full. every pothole we hit didn't register. it was one of our last times together (i never saw it coming), i pulled you aside when we got back to your house and i asked how you felt about me. you kissed me like you had always wanted, like when you dated that chubby philanderer - as i'd come to call her - and i wouldn't be within miles of you. none of it mattered because you failed to answer the question. it had become my bible, i studied it until my eyes drooped and died, they couldn't see clearly. and you kept on living like our production had never existed. nothing ever pulled on you, got you frantic - it all did to me. they all thought just because my lifeless body was still breathing they shouldn't put me in the ground. boy were they mistaken. i was low enough and i was done living. peace might have come had you tossed your fistful of dirt over top my grave.

i didn't really want to die, but i really didn't wanna come back to life. however, i misjudged the presence of religious zealots, and overestimated the revelations they would all suddenly have after the initial shock of my blessed miracle. one night too i had a dream that the government seized me and took me to an abandoned lab furnished with faces frozen in time. they ran tests on me, but that was never the case. i woke up feeling less convinced i'd be the governments number one target. the zealots terrified me though because i had nothing to prove, but i was aware they'd force my participation in spectacles. it had always had success with their transgressions and how the choose to spread the word.

when i came back to life is an impossible moment to describe. but i imagine it felt something like being jolted by those paddles dr's use to restart your heart.
in my case however life had slowly built backup over time but i only realized it in one quick instant. just like that i took everything out of the drawer and got it back up on the shelf and if you come over today and saw it i'd make sure to tell you i did it all without help.

64 comments:

  1. That was an interesting read...kinda depressing though.

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  2. I can very clearly tell that you put a lot of heart into your work. Are these based on personal experiences?

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  3. I wonder who this if for? It is moving, nontheless.

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  4. Very good read, like others have commented it's sad -- but good!

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  6. I liked this very much. It reminds me to the end of a relationship some years ago

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  7. Wow, thats pretty deep. Amazing read.

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  8. did you write this for the heck of it, or are there some personal issues inspiring you?

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  9. I got to be honesst I couldn't read to the end. You really have a great skill. But that skill makes me live the text and I don't want to be sad. congratulations, really.

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  10. You have a good way of formulating your thoughts. This stuff is very deep, great job.

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  11. this blog looks serious. better not say anything dumb. doh

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  12. that was a great read thanks for sharing.

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  13. I would suggest improving the technicalities of Writing such as capitalizing personal pronouns like I.

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  14. Judging by the other comments many people found it sad but I actually found it inspirational, thanks for the good stuff, followed

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  15. You have a real talent for writing.

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  16. Damn, wonderful read. Thank you for that.

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  17. Fantastic read, very inspirational and well written.

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  18. This is a great blog. Following.

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  19. I really like how your able to keep the narrative flowing while still allowing your freedom of words to break away.

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  20. Requesting new post! Really enjoyed this one!

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  21. Great post, loved reading it :)

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  23. very nice read, thanks for sharing

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  25. wait wtf did i just read.. that was wow man. i love the use of raw form. no capitalization. no need. i write like this too. well would like to more often, i think you have inspired me!! thanks. you should dub this as your own style and invent a writing style ;)

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