Saturday, March 5, 2011

For The People Up High


yesterday it felt like i was thrown into reality without the bumpers and safety net.  no sound checks or dress rehearsals.  no mentor, no Virgil.  i look straight up and i see the scars in the sky.  from all the jumbo jets and the people up high.  and a kid like me is so far away we can't even be seen.  and yet i strangely have rescue on the forefront of my mind. it's better than the muscle and everyday grind.

and i see everyone else going so fast, gliding right over those short, deep gaps in the plan.  but i'm moving so slowly, i'm an easy victim, i fall right in them.  on the way down it's not my life that flashes before me, it's yours.  and you're screaming at me to just land, to hit the bottom like man.  and the bottom is something that can't be seen from the surface.  it's cavernous and chilly, and i walk around like i may find my way out.  dig in, and climb the walls - at any angle, with no security.

instead i carve out the side, crawl in a ball, and plant myself inside.
the rain can't flood me out, the faces can't call my name.
and it's all the same as it had been before,
and i'll come out when i'm good and ready.

once my wounds heal up and i can comfortably stand on two feet.  i had gotten so accustomed to giving in and taking it all. so for now i'll just sit here while i work myself out, and hopefully not into deeper trouble where i won't get myself out before summer.  i'll shed the layer of plaster and grit, and watch i'll wind up jumping out of this pit.

68 comments:

  1. Your words really have a way of just getting straight to me, it's also relevant to something going on in my life right now. Thanks for that

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  2. I love your wording, it's really great keep it up.

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  3. yes my life is going at such a fast pace in a bad way D:
    great writing btw

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  4. Like last post, I really enjoy how you are able to derive narrative through location.

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  5. Awesome writing. You use really strong words. Very vivid. Happy to follow.

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  6. nice thoughts! good looking photo too

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  7. beautiful sun. hope you get better. Following :)

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  8. That first paragraph hits hard! Every time I look up at the sky and see the planes, I'm in awe. I've always loved planes, the airports and everything, I've always thought it was amazing, seeing people from so many different nations and cities all gather in one place.

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  9. I'm fortunately at a period in my life where I don't have to worry about "wounds" or other pain. But for those that do not find themselves in a serene and safe place, I have one little suggestion: Pretend the work you're supposed to do in life is over and you can finally lean back and relax a bit. It's done; you're here; and you have oceans of time at your disposal.

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  11. I can tell that you put a lot of time into your words, it is impressive, keep up the good work.

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  12. i've been accustomed to taking it all too, somewhat recently.

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  13. Deep and kind of saddening

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  14. Wow that was really good. Nice.

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  15. wow great writing...take it a day at a time dude...that which does not kill you just makes you stronger

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  16. such a poetic read.
    thankyou. :)

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  17. I enjoyed reading. Thanks for writing :)

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  18. Deep stuff. Keep up the good work.

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  19. definitely had days like that...

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  20. that's like the feeling i get just before i wake up. :)

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  21. I like how this was structured so differently from your other writings, and I especially liked the note of triumph in impending hope that you ended it with.

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  22. I really liked this one. Keep up the good work.

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  23. excellent stuff, enjoyed the read.

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  24. very well written, liked it alot

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  25. very nice! I really like your writing style :D

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  26. very nice post. I enjoyed it.

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  27. Very powerful words you possess.

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  28. really good stuff, super powerful. Following!

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  29. you have a really nice way on expressing. keep it up!

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  30. very nice, but you should think more positive!!

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  31. Station is from Bill and Ted's. I take it your underaged :P

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  32. definitely plays on thee ole emotions, great post keep them up

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  33. Plaster and grit are what make you a real person. Wear 'em with pride.

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  34. loved it... please keep it up.

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  35. You'll be fine, just keep experiencing this thing we call life.
    Maybe check out the Dalai Lama for some straight up mind blowing stuff. Might help.
    ; P

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  36. This how and what are u writing is very interesting. I looking forward for next.

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  37. I like your metaphor at the start. about the safety and bumpers, it makes me think!

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  38. Good post as always, keep up the excellent writing!

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  39. love this post.
    btw also nice pic.

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  40. Every day you are affected by the dynamic energy, consider it a blessing.

    Nothing hurts more in the long run then the status quo and passivity. It's not in our nature, as humans :/

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